For many years, I wrote New Year’s resolutions. I usually picked a few and encouraged others to do the same. It was never about perfection. It was for fun to see how much progess was made throughout the year. When I fell into my darkness a couple years ago, resolutions were one of the first things to go. What was the point in making resolutions when my life was such a mess? Looking back now, it probably would have been the BEST time to set small goals. Little reminders to put me back on the track to being myself. Either way, I’m here now and ready to announce some New Year’s resolutions.
365 days of Gratitude
As I wrote about before, I am going to take a picture each day that represents my gratitude. These little visual reminders are a great way to bring myself back to present. It also gives the state of mind of appreciation rather than comparing to what I don’t have. I learned the very hard way in the last couple years comparison is the thief of joy. This daily reminder brings me back to enjoy the small (and large) wonderful things happening around every day.
Reduce Shame/Less Negative Self Talk
In 2020, I immersed myself in all things self help. It pretty much saved my soul. Brene Brown was one of my super stars. While I had watched her Ted Talk in past years and read inspirational quotes, I hadn’t really listened to her research into shame. After podcasts, a Netflix show, and reading her books, I have a grasp of the harm shame can do. The difference between shame and guilt she states is — guilt is when you do bad, shame is when you believe you are bad. What a mind blower! How often was I telling myself I am a bad person? Brene talks about how shame haunts us and the terrible reprecussions it can have. Our immediate feeling of being small and wanting to hide. And the only way shame survives is a person staying silent and alone.
My goal is be conscious when I’m sucked into shame and to address head on. I am going to challenge myself to admit my shame, accept it, and shine a light on it by sharing my feelings. I want to irradicate its power over me by not trying to hide from it. Hopefully this will encourage others to do the same and so we all won’t have to feel so alone.
Focus on Skin Care
This may seem very superficial to most, but for me it’s about investing time in myself. Skin care is a ritual for people who do it. Before, I used to be more diligent about washing my face at night, applying creams, and exfoliating my lips. While you may be giggling at this idea, let me explain what it represents. When I do my skin regimen, I spend several minutes looking directly at myself in the mirror. As I rub the cleanser or moisturizing cream, my silent thoughts swirl as I make eye contact with myself. In those moments, I am quietly telling myself I am worth the effort. Honestly, I never realized it until I stopped. So much time went by where looking in the mirror meant cursing the large bag under my eyes or being disgusted at the breakouts. One night, when I focused on being present in the practice, I unlocked what a treasure it could be when I tell myself I am worth it.
Eat the Frog
In the corporate world, there is a book about not procrasinating called “Eat the Frog.” It talks about don’t avoid things you don’t want to do, just get them over with. I’ve always thought that’s nice in theory, but if you procrastinate maybe fucking frog with jump away and disappear. When I listened to the podcast Motivational Mentor, he said when the thought “I don’t want to do…” pops into his head, he jumps right up and does it. He explains this reduces the fear in doing things and builds confidence. Eckart Tolle says kind of the same thing when he speaks about worry being wasted energy. His advice is don’t worry about a problem. Instead, when the problem arrives address it.
My go-to thinking is “I’ll take care of that later” and then chastize myself for not doing it earlier. I’m putting this on the list to conserve my energy for more positive things. This year, I’m going to eat the frog quickly and hop to the next thing. (See what I did there? Ha!)
Go With My Gut
You know all those times you said, “I knew I should have done that!” Well, I’m sick of saying that. From now on, I’m going with my gut. This doesn’t mean acting on any thought that pops into my head. In fact, it’s more going with the thoughts I know are right but talk myself out of with excuses. In the last few weeks, I’ve given it a test run. When I start waffling on a decision, I go with what my first thought. Surprise, surprise, they were the right decisions. The other half of this is forgiving myself quickly if they aren’t the right decisions. Instead of berating myself for being stupid, the gut and I are going to learn from the failure and move on.
There we have it! Five resolutions to keep me busy this year. As I’ve said MANY times before, they are not about perfection. If we did them perfect, why did we choose them as resolutions? This is merely about being resolved. Definition: firmly determined to do something. There’s nothing in that definition about doing it perfect or every day. It’s only about your determination.
The most imporant part about setting any goal is you are doing it for you. You are commiting to yourself that you are worth the time and effort. It’s so much more than checking off a list of to-dos. This is truly about self-love. So when you are setting your resolutions, think about them being a love list to yourself. Then as you do them during the year, you’ll have little reminders about how worthy and loved you are.